The Blonde Leading the Blind

The past few weeks has seen a number of health care problems arising among various members of my family.  My grandparents are older, but have been relatively healthy for a number of years, despite advanced COPD for my grandfather, and diabetes and high BP for my grandmother.  Over the past month, we've had to admit my grandfather to the hospital (and I didn't think he was coming home) and my grandmother has had to have testing done on both her abdomen and her neck.  So far, it's all working out ok.  My grandfather is home from the hospital and healthier now than he's been in months. My grandmother's problems all seem to be run of the mill (waiting for biopsy/test results on the tumor on her parotid gland, but everyone seems to feel it's benign.)

My brother and father each are warranting health care attention.  Daddy for a cold that seems to have left his lungs working harder than normal (mom is going to ask for a referral to a pulminologist), and my brother, all of 32 years old, completed a stress test the other day.  32!!  He's not a smoker (quit4 years ago), isn't obese (20 lbs overweight, but who isn't?), eats veggies, etc etc.  Unfortunately, he suffers the curse of our family... ARRHYTHMIA.  He finally feels that his meds are starting to kick in and yesterday was the best day he's had in 2 months.

As if I don't have enough to worry about, my husband is showing signs and symptoms of diabetes.  He turned 40 this year.  He just got a prescription for Chantix, the stop smoking drug.  He has vowed to lose weight.  They are making him do a fasting blood sugar on Monday, and he also has to get an ultrasound of his abdomen.  Why, I do not know, and neither does he.  I guess I will be calling the MD on Monday to find out that.

DAMN being in healthcare and curious about stuff!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, I just feel like I'm balancing on a tightrope these days.  Trying to stay focused at work.  Trying to be a good mom to my son.  Trying to be a good housekeeper. Trying to be a loving spouse.  Trying to help my own mom... her sister lives on the other side of the state, so most of my grandparent's care falls on her shoulders... and because I'm the oldest grandchild, mine as well.

I hope my safety harnass is attached!

My mom and grandma have ALWAYS advised me to NEVER EVER pray for patience.  If you do, then God will send along something to see how you are doing.

I must have subconsciously done this recently, because the sweet child who lives in my house had turned into a demon this weekend!  Pushing Mommy's Buttons doesn't even come CLOSE to describing how he's been treating me!!

Yeah yeah, he's only 2, he's got a cold, he's not himself.....

breathe breathe breathe......

The good side effect is that channeling the urge to squeeze him until his eyes pop out has resulted in me doing some SUPER cleaning/purging in some of the rooms in my house.....

Now if only he will let everything where I put it :-p

Can you be surrounded by people yet feel all alone? We all have moments like this.  Today, I had one.  My husband worked all day due to a job fair, so it was me and the little guy.  We did take his great gram for a ride to the store (Because no one ever takes her anywhere... but that's another entry for another day.  LOL)  I got some much needed items at the store (like, new pillows!!  http://tinyurl.com/yotrt8 to go with the new pillow cases I just ordered http://tinyurl.com/ys49tf ) and some other things....

and came home and got the kid up for a nap

and was alone!  And lonely.  But in a good way.  I worked very hard by myself and actually accomplished things during that small 3 hour window of total solitude.  You should have seen me manhandling the picnic table, all alone, to get it into the drive way to stain!  I think I had to move it about 6 or 7 yards... not easy with a 6 foot table! 

It gave me time to turn over some events in my life that are pretty significant.  For instance, today is my 34 & 1/2 birthday.  In 6 months, I will be 35.  I cannot BELIEVE in my wildest dreams that I will be 35 years old.  I guess part of it is there are so many things I thought I would have by now that I don't.  More children, and new carpeting for my house are 2 of them.   At the same time, could I ever have imagined that I would have gotten a motorcycle license, and a motorcycle?   Done so much professionally?  Been so important to so many people for their well being? (Like my grandparents? husband? Son?)

It also gave me time to buy stuff from a door to door guy then kick myself for doing it, but that is also another entry.

So, while I'm feeling alone again... both of my boys are in bed asleep.... I'd better get something else accomplished.  I'm going to crank on the radio, and dance as if no one's watching.  Because they aren't.   But it's alright.